I go in and out of
Consciousness,
Feel free and fly
for a minute,
Start a war and die
The next.
I give everything,
Forget my feelings
And give hope a try.
But you find me
With your weapons out,
With your tongue Sharp…
And my guards are down.
I thought
Maybe I didn’t need my armor,
And could come
With an open mind,
And my slate clean.
For
Starting over
And the thought of what that might mean for
My life
Gave my soul permission
To wake up,
And ignited a fire colored in beauty that i’ll never really find words to explain.
But in a flash
I.am awake,
And the fire
Is put out.
In an instant you provoke
Me.
And I am filled
To the top
With poison.
I clench my fists and
Bite my tongue,
Until the things I hate begin to blur,
Until the words
Stop stinging
And you stop meaning
So
Much.